Have you ever travelled alone? I'd really wanna travel when there are low cost seasons but I'd have to do so alone. The idea oscillates from great to terrible in the span of a second. I'd really like some input on the matter.

It is once again 1 AM and I'm scared. I'm once again petrified by the idea of not being able to fall asleep. I've become paranoid enough to be able to instill fear into myself.

I hate sleep. I hate laying there in bed alone with my head. No drugs to protect me from the endless anxiety my head provides.

I wonder if I'm alone in this. This anxiety that slowly chips away at your sanity until there's nothing left but fear of once again being unable to function as a human being.

Perhaps I'm no more than a...

Do people on ebay and 2nd hand markets thinks they give additional value to the product? How am I finding 2nd hand things that cost more than new from the producer???? It's not like it's a limited run or non international shipping. They should hide the overpriced shit or have a "guaranteed lowest price" mark on the products. Fuck resellers

My dad office recently gave it's employees claude access and I tried using my dades since he firmly opposes the use. Why would they ever choose to say "cogitating" instead of "thinking" when waiting for a reply. This is some AM kind creepy ass stuff.

I've recently decided to pirate the musicians that suck(morally) and instead directly supporting musicians I enjoy (by buying their music). Too bad even when you WANT to pay there are barriers to do it through. This Dj I've been enjoying only has his music on spotify and soundcloud (free to listen to) and no option to buy and own the music. No way to escape the ever growing "you'll own shit and be happy" world we live in. FFS

I've recently been considering buying a shoulder bag. The issue is that I've never really had anyone close to me use one frequently and I'm afraid I'd stand out a bit too much. To be fair shoulder bags aren't common in my country. The type of shoulder bag I'm taking about is more or less this type but not leather(probably something more tech-ish):...

...companies.
I've grown too dependent on AI supported by massive companies that give very few shits about "morality". I do believe that AI has a place in a normal persons workflow but I refuse to feed any more information to the corporate overlord at "skynetgpt".

I've decided to reset my searching loop:

1. Let me try and se tf I make
2. Search for wiki like answers
3. search on forums for user suggestions
4. search on reddit (eww)
5. use local llm
6. eh maybe it ain't worth it
7. is it really worth...

https://youtu.be/X4FeyMPB6SY?si=Z-iIzPMchiq1U_eq

How I hate JD. How i hate every single slimy monster that hides pedophiles and other monster.

I don't believe in an afterlife but I do believe in time, there will come a time when they'll suffer. In sickness they'll suffer, in loneliness they'll suffer, in the consequences of their actions they'll suffer.

My heart breaks for the people who have been hurt by the hands of monsters and then hidden by...

Today my dad came back home with a laptop just for me, it's an old lenovo laptop with some missing keys. Apparently at work they were supposed to get rid of it and my dad offered to take it home. I want to use it but don't know what to do with it, I was thinking of just putting nixos on it and try getting into ricing. but I'm all ears for fun suggestions.

How the fuck is the algorithm so bad, my guy ... just give me similar artists. How are "recommended stations" radios made up by mostly songs I already have played or even in my playlist???? Also, JUST MIX MY FUCK ASS SONGS, I don't need anything more complicated than a random number generator choosing the index of the song in my playlist, I don't need no "smart mixing".

Anyway suggest me some songs that you enjoy listening to while working on stuff.

I sometimes wonder if living alone in a watchtower is a good experience. I am an extremely lonely person that is not too bothered by not interacting with others for more than a month. Has anybody here lived a similar working experience? If so, how was it?

When I was in China with my dad for work we unintentionally chose a hotel right next to the store where Hasan Piker had his jacket sailored. Coming back from dinner I stumbled upon this.

I had a terrible headache yesterday, I had ibuprofen and only a monster energy to down it. After taking the two the headache was gone and I felt energized all throughout the evening. I later discovered that apparently caffeine and ibuprofen, when taken together, have a stronger effect than either one alone. This is the source if you're interested or know more than I do about the topic: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11014413/

There are times where I wonder what it means to be a human.

Humans have no meaning.

The universe is and would be with or without humans.

We just are.

We are here not for rhyme or a reason.

The only thing keeping us here being this "need".

This need to live, to scuttle around aimlessly. To distract ourself until our gear stop turning.

I don't believe in god, a god would not do this. A god would not toy around with its creations.

The universe is a machine, one that churns years, decades centuries,...

I've recently started binge watching many of the originals of the biggest franchises(particularly horror) of the 80s - 90s and they range from amazing to almost comedically bad.

• Evil Dead: the original started off quite goofy but the second one really jumped the gun from horror to comedy. Couldn't bring myself to watch the third installment, boring and only barely funny.

• Jurassic Park: The first is a masterpiece and then it progressively got worse. I plan on watching the Jurassic World series in a...

Some people amaze me in a bad way, I just had a three hour train with the worst person ever.

Firstly they skipped the line when getting into the train loudly arguing with whoever opposed them. Then got mad when nobody wanted to help them with the stroller.

They had with them two kids (what seemed like a 2yr old and an less than 1yr old one) and they shouted and screamed the whole ride, now I don't fault the person for the behaviour of kids this young but at least try to keep them occupied. They were just...

I was finally able to fix the issue I explained last time. And the fix was...being connected to tailscale but not using the server as an exit node(plus some ip shenanigans). I was so exstatic that I decided to try to setup ollama with openwebui as frontend and searXNG as search engine but the web search functionality isn't working(and that is kind of bad news when working with 1b-7b models)

I'm currently in the midst of setting up a server running truenas scale and I've kind of reached a breaking point. I'm trying to make it possible to access opencloud via tailscale but can't seem to make it work. And thus I wondered, how tf are people doing it alone? Even having counteless tutorials, the allknowing AI and reddit I have no idea tf I'm doing. Cs majors, what kind of ancient gods have you called upon to deal with this mess of dns, proxy, reverse proxy and tunneling shenanigans.

Not a cs...

I was talking to a friend and when the conversation moved on to marvel heroes he kept saying that his favorite superhero was Ironman, I just can't see the point though. If Ironman were a real person I'd absolutely hate him. He's everything wrong with the billionaires of today and much more. He made his money selling weapons to terrorists, he consistently cheats on his lovers, he believes he's above the law, he suffers from the classic "he's the smartest human ever! but not enough to be actually useful to...

Decided to do a small update to talk about the changes I experienced during my distancing from social medias and going back on a diet.

Diet:

The diet proved to be easier to follow than expected, I mainly removed afternoon snacks and then replaced most calorie dense foods with lighter alternatives. The main issue I'm facing is portion size, I still tend to eat a bit more than I should.

Social Media:

My screen time had initially dropped substantially but soon I started filling up that gained time...