Am I like…shadow banned? :(

You know the birthday party scene from “I Saw The TV Glow”, the one where she starts desperately starts screaming for someone to help her?

I think I understand that on a much more personal level now…

While slow, I’m confident that I’m making progress. It just takes time, y’know?

4th week down of this whole…process

weekly injections in the tummy aren’t fun :c

but i’m finally understanding what “calm” feels like

it’s brought out parts of me that have needed healing

this is more than worth it

Damn, it's been a minute

How's everyone been?

I managed to get an APK from Android 4.3 working on a BlackBerry!

Been using it as a journaling/writing device. I gotta say folks, noooot bad

Now I’ve got a handful of ideas with no real baseline of how to start any of them :(

Can’t

Pretend

To

Stop

Dissociating

If anyone hasn’t done this already, I highly recommend adding cyberspace as a web app on your phone.

Shit will change your life, yo

My childhood frienemy passed away this past weekend. It’s torn me up in ways I didn’t think possible (until now) and WAY too many memories came flooding back when I heard.

In the past, anytime someone brought up his name it’d bring back nothing but the worst memories between us. Now though, the only thing I could think about were all of the good memories we had when we were kids…and how terrible I feel for his parents.

No parent should ever have to bury their child. I hope to never understand...

I'm about to try making myself a cyberdeck, just not sure what kind of hardware I want to cram into it. Obviously the usual stuff, the brains (likely a Pi), a keyboard, batteries, the works. I'm even planning on adding Meshtastic/MeshCore capabilities, which will likely be fun to tinker with. Outside of that, though, I'm clueless on what else I can add that will make my cyberdeck something I can daily carry while leaning toward coms/OPSEC use. Any one able to give some advice?

I'm learning that sometimes things are exactly as they should be. Is it always this scary learning how to trust the process, or is this just me?

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C-803

I wonder how many accomplishments I could achieve if I only believed in myself more :c

Who would win:

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A solar powered camera utilized by one of the most terrifying surveillance states known to mankind

OR

One cardboard boxy boi? :3

(fr tho why don’t we just put cardboard boxes over these stupid fucking things…in minecraft)

Watched “I Saw The TV Glow” for the first time last night

Proceeded to have a mental/emotional breakdown that felt like I was experiencing the heat death of the universe.

I’m in danger, aren’t I?

has anyone here ever gone through an identity crisis?

i think i’ve been going through one for the past few months. While i HATE being a critic, i gotta say that it’s been a hell of an experience in the best and worst ways

maybe that’ll get better once i find all of myself :]

My brain feels like a black hole but like…inside it…if that makes any sense?

Not sure if box breathing will help much with a feeling like THAT but uhhh…imma keep doing that until I can feel something other than

VOID

anyone read about windows 12 yet?

How about that, we can’t even own our os anymore…fun times, huh folks…

I’ll be switching OS’s soon at this point, anyone have any recommendations by chance? Bazzite seems like the right pick but i’m not entirely sure atm

Reposting with the NSFW tag. Thank you for the heads up regarding this @kaguya and @genghis_khan ! I will be more mindful of this moving forward <3

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TW: Mentions of suicide, C-PTSD, Dissociation

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I wish people thought more,

just a bit more before they spoke.

Egg shells be damned

my triggers could use a sec

to reset before I choke

on the hairs

they are made from.

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Careless critiques

Of which were never asked:

“You published it on the internet!“

-I shared it to make people...

“There’s only one race, the human race”

-That one vine

lots of feelings to get out with this post.

I cannot stand my job, but then again who DOESN’T hate their job, ammirite?!?!? The expectation and status quo is that you WILL work a job that you hate and you WILL learn to like it or else **YOU. WILL. FUCKING. DIE.**

We walk into tech buzz saws as if it’s what we were hired to do. We follow our gracious leader into anything, no matter what our feelings are on the subject, our expertise, NOTHING. The guy is an actual...

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