crumbling castle

i feel different, a weight has been lifted, an emotional wall has crumbled, a nonchalant wall. not just that but one that has the precision of a robot. one that artistically blocks all emotion except in one vain. i feel the former glory of my body before the walls were built. now life is much harder and with each year the walls get harder to break down until there is nothing but wall. despite this there is always a sort of back way or sensitivity. you must find your weakness when the walls are vulnerable. when a thought slips through that says something isn't right. it is in that precise moment that you must strangle the persona you have created around yourself, your wants and needs, hobbies and conspiracies. take a moment to connect the universe for it is not only external but internal. feel it moving inside you. let it sweep you into the cosmos.