Conclusion of an essay I wrote

My life has been characterized by important mentors, close family support, and a love of learning. I'm grateful for the opportunity to help others every day. My mental illness is undiagnosed laser-pointer focus. I have always looked at the smallest denominator the most. I've always counted things, learned everyone's shoes in grade school, etc. It has taken me until very recently to realize myself in the big picture. As my focus shifts between Mind, Emotions, Body, and Soul, I find what's in the center is unattainable, and I am left unconcerned.

"Walking along
I followed the drifting stream to its source,
but reaching the headwaters left me stunned.
That's when I realized that the true source isn't a particular place you can reach.
So now, wherever my staff sets down, I just play in the current's eddies and swirls."

— Ryokan