The loneliness of existence is strong today.

I have been sober for over a year and a half now and I'm proud of it, I have no desire to touch a drop again!

I've achieved some great things since I've been on the dry, I have a great job, moved to a lovely flat in a nice part of the city near where I grew up, but the downside is that I have drifted apart from my old friends. I went to my old home town today to visit the parents, which was lovely to see them as always, and I thought, I shall message the group chat (I'm still quite active in it) to see if anyone would like to meet for a coffee only to be met with silence. Now they are all down the pub and their group chat is videos of them at the pub! I can't help but feel a little bit down about it as I haven't seen them for months.

The trouble with living in England is the drinking culture. It feels like its ingrained into every social meeting, which is a shame and I do think something does need to change or even be acknowledged and talked about. Since moving to where I have now I have a couple of nice late night coffee bars that are very busy till the end of the night. It's nice to see people, mainly from different cultures have a nice chilled evening and enjoy good company.

What I would love to see is a queer and alternative late night coffee shop open up here, I would love to meet others like me and make some new friends!

I don't really quite know where this post was going, as I don't have anyone to talk to. I just wanted to say it somewhere. Thanks for reading, hopefully my next post might be a bit more cheery! now back to my book and records!