Sleepy at the airport. Children screaming constantly is frying my brain.

Prokaryotes, the simplest unicellular species, display behaviors that are clearly cognitive in nature including associative learning, stable memory formation, route navigation and decision-making. They anticipate upcoming events and readily create functional social collectives, within which they display both cooperation and competition and, fascinatingly, a primitive form of altruism where some cells in a colony put themselves at risk to support the life functions of other cells in distress (Reber et al,...

Met a stranger at the airport. We chatted the whole 45min wait for our plane. It felt very peaceful:)

It has been almost a week since I hit day 30. I wanted to take some time to think and see how it’s affected me.

First day after the break I was so excited to play I allowed myself to do so without a time limit. I must say, it was not as exciting as I thought it would be. It was fun but I found myself wanting to move on and do something else after an hour. This has been true every time I sat down to play. I did feel a pull to sit back down later, after I’d already made the decision to quit for the day...

Almost there baby!!!

I’ve been busy the past few days. I had a job interview this morning and it went very well. I was surprised with how calm I felt, I thought I’d be freaking out. I do attribute this partly to the challenge - I had no way to avoid my nervousness, so I prepared well instead. (I’m sure it’s mostly therapy and treatment that did it though lol) Today I’m tempted to make an exception as a reward for the job interview, though I might not have the time. Did I mention how long the days feel?...

Something changed two days ago. I found myself reading, drawing and studying for hours without noticing the passage of time.

Usually at some point in the day I will feel like my brain is screaming at me, but these past few days have been so quiet. It’s nice.

My brain is working through having much less easy leisure. I was surprised by how much even reading felt like effort, so I lowered the bar - I picked a simpler book and have been blazing through it.

Obviously, a little gaming break is not a silver...

Gaming break day 7/30

Reading and drawing seem more fun to my brain because I'm so bored. I have a lot of time on my hands during the day and nothing fills it out like gaming does; that's not a bad thing though, having all this space. It's helping me dig up ideas I've had sitting in my brain for ages and start working on them instead of existing in this uncomfortable in-between state.

I read something about actors choosing roles that scare them the most, because fear of failure is a good indicator that...

Two days ago I agreed with my partner that we would take a month-long break from games.

There was no big dramatic reason, we'd just noticed we've been spending more time gaming than we would like. I felt like my time could be spent better if I didn't have chunks of my day magically disappear the moment I booted up RDR2. I also felt sapped of creativity, bored and uninspired, which is not ideal for an artist.

It's only day 2 and it's a STRUGGLE. I find myself accessing some feelings that I...