Almost there baby!!!

I’ve been busy the past few days. I had a job interview this morning and it went very well. I was surprised with how calm I felt, I thought I’d be freaking out. I do attribute this partly to the challenge - I had no way to avoid my nervousness, so I prepared well instead. (I’m sure it’s mostly therapy and treatment that did it though lol) Today I’m tempted to make an exception as a reward for the job interview, though I might not have the time. Did I mention how long the days feel?...

Something changed two days ago. I found myself reading, drawing and studying for hours without noticing the passage of time.

Usually at some point in the day I will feel like my brain is screaming at me, but these past few days have been so quiet. It’s nice.

My brain is working through having much less easy leisure. I was surprised by how much even reading felt like effort, so I lowered the bar - I picked a simpler book and have been blazing through it.

Obviously, a little gaming break is not a silver...

Gaming break day 7/30

Reading and drawing seem more fun to my brain because I'm so bored. I have a lot of time on my hands during the day and nothing fills it out like gaming does; that's not a bad thing though, having all this space. It's helping me dig up ideas I've had sitting in my brain for ages and start working on them instead of existing in this uncomfortable in-between state.

I read something about actors choosing roles that scare them the most, because fear of failure is a good indicator that...

Two days ago I agreed with my partner that we would take a month-long break from games.

There was no big dramatic reason, we'd just noticed we've been spending more time gaming than we would like. I felt like my time could be spent better if I didn't have chunks of my day magically disappear the moment I booted up RDR2. I also felt sapped of creativity, bored and uninspired, which is not ideal for an artist.

It's only day 2 and it's a STRUGGLE. I find myself accessing some feelings that I...