Entry 003

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Not gonna lie, this entry is by far the most depressing one I’m going to make lol.

<<VIRGEN DE LOS DOLORES>>

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I picked this image today because I feel it slightly represents my feelings lol (I say slightly because if I say exactly, it would be too dramatic).

Today is Worker’s Day, and it’s a bank holiday, at least where I’m from. It’s pretty cool because it’s what we call a “puente” (bridge) here—since it’s Friday, it connects with the weekend and turns it into a 3-day break, which is pretty nice.

For those who may not know, I lived in London for the past 7 years and just moved back to Spain last December... 7 years of being abroad made me realize I don’t really have many friends left. The ones who used to text me things like “I wish you lived here, I can’t wait to see you” never text me anymore because they have better things to do, and the others simply prefer to hang out with the friend groups they’ve built over the last, well, 7 years.

I’m not a lonely or introverted person—I’m actually quite social—but now my friend groups from the last 7 years are all around the world because we met in London, and I can feel our relationships slowly drifting away from each other.

I spent the beginning of the day trying to convince people to hang out. This one is in Thailand with her friends, this other one is traveling to Japan tomorrow and needs to rest, another one went to Granada to visit some friends, and another one is just too busy studying or is going to hang out with her girlfriend. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely don’t blame them, but man… I feel like I got stuck in time, and there’s no way to go back. And my city is small as fuck—I can’t just casually try to make new friends like I did in London—and it’s just so depressing, man.

Anyway, I ended up watching Two Broke Girls the whole day until I fell asleep. Then I just woke up, and I’ll probably play some Tomodachi Life on my 3DS or something...

Hope this entry didn’t make anyone too depressed lol, and I’d really like it if you guys want to share any similar experiences, or if you, like me, are experiencing loneliness for the first time.

Love to you all ( *´・ω)/(；д； )

Lovai is out for today!

(Unless I find a new cool song, then you’ll probably hear more from me today!)

( ﾟ∀ﾟ)人(ﾟ∀ﾟ )