As I tried opening up
people tried to suspect a lot.
it is as if the Hedgehog's Dilemma
is happening again.

The more we get close
we inflict more pain to each other
is it all there is?

pain and more pain
rejection and suspicion
being accused of a creep
turning me into some pariah.

I wish I would not wallow in my pain.
I wish work will make me forget.
drown all my disappointments like wine would.
but wine might even not make me relieve.

When the going gets tough,
the tough gets going.
But when you are alone, sad.
it is the true test of character.

I strive to find a way home again...
back to laughter,
harmless,innocent times,
social life.

Even if humanity is getting extinct
Institution by institution
Friendship by friendship
one bond at a time.