Feeling like i decieve others

Around a year ago, i remember reading a post on Threads which i'm going to paraphrase that said something like "I decieved everyone into thinking i am a good person by being kind and helpful to them". This resonated with me way too much, and even though i understand it rationally, i still feel this way.

I feel so weird when people say good things about me, or praise me for my efforts, my role as a father, my work ethics, the way i carry myself around people. In a way, i feel like i have presented them only a side of who i am, and they would surely not think the same way if they knew who i "really" am.

But writing that makes me realize this is a stupid train of thought... everyone presents themselves in a certain way with others, and would not show all of themselves to everyone, and that doesn't make them a bad person or anything. Sure, i can never be sure what people are like beyond how they treat me and how i know they treat others, but it would be very silly to think they are a nasty human being when i'm not looking, right? I try my best to be polite, kind and considerate with others, yet i do not feel like i do a good enough of a job.

Even though i know this, i feel like the praise i can get is undeserved. I can think of many times i wasn't a good parent, or i could have done things a much better way, or times i did not do a good job at work, or many, many instances where i surely was not a kind, good human being... At that point, though, I can realize i'm just making up excuses to not accept that others may have a positive view about me.

As i try to process where i am socially with others, i also get told a lot that i'm different, or weird... Not necessarily in a bad way, but coupled with connotations of "correctness" or "quirky" and "nerdy" kind of weird; yet i cannot shake the feeling that everyone secretly hates me, or despises me, or is lying to me... Or that, at the very least, i seem to give off a vibe of a guy that i am not.

I wish i had a nice conclusion here, about how i should accept positive comments without questioning them or care less about what others think, but i've been ruminating on these things for a couple of years. I cannot rationalize my way out of them, so i'm not sure what is my solution. At least, i have a couple of people i truly feel comfortable with, that i can accept they love me and that is enough for me now.