i fear failure... i've been a swe student for about 5 years now, soon finishing my msc.

i get through internships, jobs, etc. without any issues but ever since ai and llms became a thing it feels as though i lost my brain, my creativity, my drive... i feel like an impostor among my peers, like someone, who has no business nor skills and knowledge to be anywhere around a computer and a text editor...

i work on my own little projects, thank fuck i still do, but unless i see immediate, working minimum viable product or prototype and my brain does not get it's instant dose of gratification, i abandon anything i start within minutes...

i remember the days when programming and going down a rabbit hole of discovering new and innovative methods and cool ways of doing something as trivial as iterating over an array... not anymore... now it's just ctrl+c ctrl+v the error from terminal to the agent of my choice, without reading overwrite entire file and pray it works and if it doesn't? you guessed it, rinse and repeat...

i need help...

i need someone or something to help me reboot my brain, go back to being a curious individual who thrives on solving problems, not continually replaces himself with a language model...