I have thoughts, yet I can't tie them together, so enjoy as it is:

I think quite a lot of us could relate on "not wanting to

improve body physique".

Being a home plant that I am, and rarely going outside (unless there's reason to), it's no wonder my body shape would be "meh". I don't wanna be an athlete, a gym rat, and so my mindset was not considering sports at all.

I can carry so so heavy things, but I wasn't interested at all on spending my time on something this seemingly useless. Like, I know all that basic stuff where improving your body, improves your health in long-term, stamina, mood and other conditions, but to me, it wasn't calling. I wasn't interested in spending my time to improve my body, as it wasn't resonate with me or so.

In my mind it was like "a long, 4 hour long adventure 5 times a week or so", but I was never considering it as a "casual chore".

To me, in my mind I was thinking of sports and body improvement as "Going out to some gym to train for around 4 hours, including walk to there, and being somewhere that is not home. It also means I need to have all that pointless second clothes for training probably. And me being not nearby PC means I can't be helping who may be in need, etc.".

I never enjoyed to change clothes in school for PE class, never enjoyed to be there, I don't enjoy football, I don't enjoy basketball, hating push ups as its like all formed to be a good boy at keeping captains orders if I ever be dragged into military. So I hated each and every aspect of PE class besides sitting and doing what I want.

Yet recently, I've talked to a random dude in discord, and despite both of us being of a different world view, he was around 8 years older than me, and it's quite a big gap as he kinda passed "Young Adult" status. Shortly speaking, he was looking at my body and he being from quite dangerous city, and by being very knowledgeable about brawling and bar fights (I don't suspect his credibility not in the slightest), he was talking to me that I be sleeping on my body parameters, that if I would be just a bit more sporty, I be throwing strong ass punches, of course in the means of self defense and that in life of every man, there will be a moment where he has to protect someone.

It was pleasant person to talk to, but not the talk I wish to hear, despite it being very needed and highlighted another issues of me that I couldn't deny. By munching on his words, I've realized how much of "accidental factors" I have to become abit better in shape. It shows in my diet, quite good for mass gain, me having roller skates (improves legs), me having good arch next to my PC, so I can pull up and still watch YouTube or be on call with someone if they need assistance, etc.

As the spring is coming, the pleasant temperature, I have windows full blast open when I can, so instead of warming me with blanket (as I always tend to not sleep until it's 5 am), I'm warming up myself by 2l water bottles as my dumbbells, a 3l water bottle as some kind of kettle.

It's probably sounding silly or "jobless problems", but my mindset combines practicality and personal wish to do something. I would hate every part of a process if it would've been forced on me. But as I found ways to improve as my own pace, for as dumb excuses as to warm up myself at nights, I consider it a win.