sometimes i feel like i'm here, but not really in myself. like... everything is happening normally. i'm talking to ppl, listening to music, doing whatever, but there's this weird distance between me and everything around me. i'm still doing everything i'm supposed to do, i just don't always feel like i'm actually there doing it. like my body is here, my mind is here, but somehow i'm somewhere else.

and idk, sometimes i feel so disconnected from everything while still seeing it all in full colors. everything looks so vivid, i can hear everything, feel everything, but there's still something missing that i can't really explain. it's like i'm reaching for something in front of me, but i can't see it, and idk what i'm reaching for either. maybe that's the weirdest part... wanting to find something when you don't even know what it is.

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