Life at home is hard...

My brother always bothers me.. he always lies to my mom and says stuff. My mom almost always believes him and then they talk about me behind my back about stuff and get angry when I try to defend myself or tell my side of the story.

It feels suffocating. I feel that I have really no family. They are all fickle and have no spine. I feel like a burden among them.

I hate it, I can't find work.. and yet I tried the best I could for my parents.. only to be told i'm lazy.. and that I don't do anything. Maybe they're right sometimes.. sometimes I do get up late and I don't always eat. I still do my chores and I clean and fix stuff when they don't even ask.. but the moment I make a mistake they make me feel terrible..

It feels like i'm the only one who has to say sorry or turn the other cheek.. I never really feel validated. Something is always my fault.. my older brother admits to saying "yeah, if something goes wrong I just say you did it" and then he laughs.

I'm gonna go walk.

WiNDY :c