Today at work was really awful or not, idk. It's really hot too that doesn't help. I managed to talk to my boss under some circumstance about my possible ASD. I managed yes... with lots of difficulty and i was struggling too and now I'm still thinking about it, what I've could said instead etc... As usual he tried to offer me his help, I just said there is nothing to do beside waiting for a diag and telling him. It's been almost six months i was thinking about it and it's happened today only because i can't manage it anymore with my "colleague". He just so chaotic, on every side, that drive me crazy, the first day i saw him coming, I saw everything that was gonna happen I'm more exhausted because of his work, all the problems we already have here i see all the time and there is so much all around. I know how lucky i can be with my boss letting me listening to music during work and letting me having my hood on if i need but not my colleague because of his chaotic behavior. He understood clearly how i work the fact i see everything and calculate everything.

I would like to tell him some important stuff too, because it can change a lots on my situation and my work, but I'm stuck. When i told him about my possible ASD, i saw everything all the movement he was making and how he was acting and i couldn't react to it or i was trying to slightly escape, i just wanted to drop my monologue as usual and flee away as soon as possible.